Camila and I got up today at 8:30.. that is how tired we were. Cesar woke up at 6:30am, he could not sleep anymore. As soon as she opened her eyes she was calling for papa and smiling and playing with him.
We had breakfast with my mother in law. Camila was running around and calling out for "abuelita"....very cute. She remembered her from the pics we had sent. We hung out for a bit and then at about 11 we decided to go to the park. It was sunny and warm. She had fun at the playground and again she is wanting to do things that she would not do before. She is a brave little girl!!
We came back to the apartment and a lot of Cesar's family came to visit. They brought the kids so Camila would feel better. She never cried but she was very quiet. She would not let go of my hand, at all times I had to be around. So here is the bad part about today...for some reason I have been very melancholic and have cried all day. I did not want Camila to see my like that so I tried to look away. I know that I should not cry in front of her but today I was feeling down. I am not sure if I am just overwhelmed and tired. Camila reacted really well to all the people that was here. She was giving them kisses, smiling but just very quiet. My crying started because I thought she had a setback, I thought that maybe there were too many people for her first day. Truth be told she was fine, she was quiet, she wanted mommy around but she was fine. The problem was me.
I am feeling better now. Cesar always manages to make me feel better and to make me laugh! I am going to bed now so I can wake up tomorrow well rested : ) Please do not get me wrong, this is by far the happiest time of my life. I am in love with my family, I just really think I was feeling very overwhelmed....Cesar also says that maybe I am playing catch up because throughtout this process I have cried very little and those of you who know me well, know that I cry a lot. (lol)
That's all for now!
Hola Estela, no te preocupes si Camilita se queda quietica y no esta acostumbrada a tanta gente, eso es normal. Yo estoy de visita en Cali y aqui como te puedes imaginas las familias son grandes y todo el dia viene gente que quiere verla y ella no sabe quienes son. A veces se pone timida y se me pega como una garrapatica y otras ni me pone cuidado y sale a correr por toda la casa con los ninos que vienen. Ellos tienen su momento de adaptacion y hay dias en son mas independientes que otros. Y tu tambien como mama vas a aprenddiendo cada dia algo nuevo de ella y de ti tambien. Es un proceso muy lindo y de verdad que me parece super que tu y Cesar lo esten viviendo y que Camila este rodeada de una familia que la quiere y se preocupa por ella. Un abrazo,
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I have enjoyed reading your blog. I know what you mean about not wanting to meet the foster mom. I did not know it was possible until our children's came up to me in the street! Have a good time in Bogota.
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Estelita,no sabes cuanto me conmueve leer todo esto ...eres una persona muy linda y grande de corazon !!! Camila no pudo quedar en mejores manos ...
ReplyDeleteOye hoy se retiro Regis Farewell !!!
y la temperatura esta a 36 estoy muerta del frio !!
Estela,
ReplyDeleteTu y Cesar son personas muy lindas y especiales. Se merecen toda la felicidad del mundo. Todas las mamas tenemos dias como el que tu tuviste hoy... lo que pasa es que nos preocupamos demasiado por ser las mejores mamas y darle lo mejor a nuestros chiquitos... Ellos siempre estan bien! Y seguro que Camila no es la excepcion, pues esta rodeada de mucho amor, es una nina muy querida.
Cada dia es un dia nuevo, para aprender mas de ti, de Camila, de ustedes como padres...
Abrazos para los tres... Que Dios los siga bendiciendo y llenando de toda la dicha que se merecen.